Mary Mary Why ya buggin

 I heard this song incessantly growing up. Usually sung at me at an annoyingly loud volume while I buried my face in some age inappropriate book I found laying around my house, where my Mom left it, carelessly. 

"Mary Mary! Why ya BUGGIN?! MARY MARY I NEED YOUR HUGGIN!"

It pops into my head now randomly as a 40 year old adult and honestly, I couldn't tell you the last time I actually heard that song played....unless you count when Run DMC did a cover of it...which I don't...BUT ANYWAY!

Hi, my name is Mary ( once instead of twice) and I am 40 years old, married 10 years to a wonderful man with whom I have 3 beautiful girls. I am a full time Vascular Sonographer ( fancy words for Ultrasound tech that looks at veins and arteries!) And I am BURNT OUT.

There, the introduction is out of the way! Now, to purpose myself.

I need help. Those words are by far the hardest I have ever said and from the way people respond when I ask them how they handle the daily impossibility of life juggling adulthood I'm assuming most people bury those words deep and forget they exist.

Suffer in silence.

One foot in front of the other. 

Everyone struggles,  it's just your turn.

You're super Mom!

This is what you wanted!

Back in my day...

Yea. Back in your day, one income sustained a family of 12 and a gallon of milk was .50. Shut up Karen.

Silence is overrated. I'm here to complain. I'm here to "unburdon" I'm here to vent and  make myself better so I'm not such a cranky bitch when my girls want to roll on the floor and make a pillow and blanket fort that literally undoes all the work I did 5 minutes before to keep from looking like we live in a pig sty. 

I'm also here to listen to said stories.

 I feel like after 40 years I have an anecdote for almost any situation.  A mess I managed to climb out of for every year I've  existed. I want to share.

So, enjoy...or don't  IDHAF lol

P.S

This and all future posts are not meant for diagnosis of any medical or mental issues. I am not a doctor. I do not have an advance degree in any field. I am a 40yo Woman, wife, mother and Vascular Sonographer with a lot of experience ( wins and losses) in many areas. This is a safe place for questions and solicited advice. Please, no politics, religious or questionable medical topics. Enjoy!